Orientation Week And Social Anxieties

Well, it’s officially Orientation Week at my University and the new students/on-campus residents have arrived to move into their dorms. I decided to wander down today to pick up a book for my Introduction to Psychology class which I’d added to my schedule at the last minute. It turns out that this textbook cost me as much as all of my other textbooks combined. Which doesn’t bother me THAT much I guess. I live in a sketchy area of my city and I’ve been pondering buying a weapon like a baseball bat in case someone were to ever break into my home while I was asleep. This book seems heavy enough to beat someone to death with though. So, two birds with one stone.

My University campus is really strange compared to most other Universities out there. It’s situated in the downtown core of my city and it’s a campus which is situated about an hour away from the “Main” campus. Rather than having one big area only for the University, it is instead a mix of downtown core buildings and scattered old buildings converted into University facilities.

So as you pass by people in the street, you will pass a student, student, teacher, drug addict, drug addict, student, civilian, drug dealer, gangster, student, homeless man, drug addict. It’s wonderful, I can already smell the school spirit. ย ๐Ÿ˜€


Today gave me the chills a little bit, I’m sure not too many of you have guessed this already, because I’m so good with my composure in writing, but I have MAD social anxiety!!! So, as I walked the streets and groups of students were screaming out to each other, chanting school cheers – I just wanted to put my head down and get the hell out of there! These young people… It’s hard to believe I was once one of them, and now I’m of the ancient 30’s group of people. (I know, I know it’s not that old, and I’m sure all of you 40 + are feeling pretty sour about that statement, but compared to these young hooligans it feels that way.) ๐Ÿ˜›

I can tell that some of these kids have come straight from high-school with their old identities still in tact. (The Jocks, The Preps, The Geeks etc.) The loud ones that like to constantly shout for attention are usually the type who make me cringe the hardest. I’m happy that I won’t be getting involved in any of that drama, I’ll be going to my classes and just focusing on my work. They can keep their social cliques.

I’ve also volunteered with a program which aims to help kids in elementary school with their creative writing. So, I had to get a vulnerable sector background check application put through at the Police Station. I’d figured this could help my career in some small way, reveal more of my strengths/weaknesses and I enjoy helping kids to grow, so perhaps it will be good for my soul. If not, then it’s only for a few months anyways. They might inspire me to create some cool creative works, give me character ideas or help me to create some fun short fictions.


Now I have one week to finish this novel I’ve been reading, “The Catcher in the Rye” before my school experience really begins to chew up most of my time. (Great book so far by the way). I believe it inspired the guy who murdered John Lennon of the Beatles back in the day, although, I’ve still yet to find my inspiration for murder in it.

Still excited and nervous, and looking forward to the weeks ahead.
Take care and best wishes. I hope you’re all having a great start to your week.

How’s your Monday going?

60 thoughts on “Orientation Week And Social Anxieties

  1. This is kind of relatable. Now, weโ€™re mixed with the other class (the loud, annoying, chatty, dramatic class), which isโ€ฆunfortunate. I decided to ignore it all and just focus because weโ€™re only two days in and we covered two Biology lessons. Two! I hope university will be more comfortable for you through time! I canโ€™t relate since Iโ€™ve been in the same school for 9 years now ๐Ÿ˜Š

    P.S Iโ€™m already labeled as the nerd. Pretty sure everyone knows Iโ€™m an introvert by now ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚

    Excuse my rambling ๐Ÿ˜‚

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  2. Text books could definitely be used as a weopen. I remember how heavy my Anatomy & Psychology books were. I hope for your sake the hooligans arenโ€™t too hooliganish! ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ I love Catcher In The Rye by the way. Great book!!

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  3. We are sending you our strength and people talking ability thru the web. We know you can do this. Hard things being done โ€“ makes you brave. I hope working at it even though it is hard, will get easier over time. Who knows you could even be a social expert after awhile.

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    1. ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป Thank you so much. When things get tough I will just remember that I embody the spirit if Dave and Laura.

      My social anxieties just get high during transition periods. I will adapt. I’ll likely just be fumbling and awkward for a week or two.

      Thanks a bunch. ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿ˜

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      1. Our daughters have social anxiety and they made some huge progress in the last few years the one thing that really helped them was realizing that everybody’s just focused on themselves and really not paying attention to them once I realize that things got way better for them

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  4. *insert 40 something eyeroll* ๐Ÿ˜ well you have managed to send my anxiety into overload with the thought of being in your shoes. I was able to complete my Bachelor’s degree online thankfully, but I’m certain you will do great and kick ass. Gooooo You xoxo

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    1. Ahhh you’re the best. I’ve tried the online thing but Ive always lost my motivation after a while. Seeing teachers and fellow students in real time does help me stay motivated, plus I have no friends around here, so maybe some of these youngins won’t be completely dreadful lol.

      Thanks a bunch ๐Ÿ˜‰

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  5. When do you officially start school? Eek…how nerve wracking and exciting at the same time! I can’t imagine going back…also being in my 30’s and being surrounded by all those kids straight out of high school – how surreal.
    I love it that you will be working with young kids and teaching them creative writing! I think you are going to enjoy that.
    My Monday is good so far, just relaxing (as I only have my baby today and she is napping) and ‘thinking’ about writing something since I’ve been keeping quiet the last few days.

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      1. I do have lots of ideas! Sometimes it’s overwhelming and I feel like I can’t keep up with mind.
        I have also been focusing on my baby the last few days because I made the decision to wean her. So focusing on her and myself too I suppose. I will be back into blogging this week for sure!

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  6. Love it! I’m sorry to hear about your anxiety, but it sounds fabulously exciting to me! Best of luck with your studies! I hear Catcher in the Rye is a coming of age story. Feels thematic here. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Ahhh Maybe I’ll do a book review by the time I finish. Thank you for your well wishes.

      I always get anxiety about stuff, I just try not to let it stop me from doing anything. Anxiety doesn’t need to keep you from living. It just means you need to dig deeper for the courage! ๐Ÿ˜

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  7. I went to college in my early 20s. In my early 40s, I decided I wanted to pursue a new career path, one that involved taking all those science classes I avoided the first go ’round. I struggled mightily with the math, chemistry and physics, annoyed at how easy those classes were for those straight-out-of-high school students. I survived, and discovered that the bonus was that this time, I wasn’t afraid to talk with and get to know my professors. They seemed relieved to have students a bit older than 18-22 to talk to, as well. I would think in your writing program, making those connections with your professors will be fun and valuable as you grow as a writer. And the creative writing with kids gig? Awesome! Can’t wait to read about your experiences there.

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    1. Thanks for the reassurance! I will definitely try to forge some important connections and now that I’m older my passion for learning is so much higher than in my younger years. I feel very confident about this. I appreciate your support ๐Ÿ˜Š Thank you.

      Congratulations on all of your success


      1. When I was your age, college was difficult bc I was looking after my baby nephew (Mathew like you! :D) so I had to drop but people say I should study IT bc I’m good with computers… (I have switched OSes about half a million times LMAO!!!)

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  8. Hey how dare you!!! Remember, youโ€™ve got a good friend whoโ€™s nearly a Golden Girl hahah!!! ๐Ÿคช๐Ÿ˜œ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’• Parking that happily LOL!

    Reminds me of my first week at University โ€œfeeling my wayโ€ and wanting to maintain my sacred space …. amidst all the activities, group meetings, and social gatherings (which felt like โ€œforced intimacyโ€โ€™to me then…..)

    Anyway, NOTHING YOU CANโ€™T HANDLE! Just be your awesome self friend …. and before you know it, youโ€™ll be having a blast! Oh and yes, your volunteer program sounds pretty cool! Continue to shine in abundance Mat. You bless the world more than you even know! โญ๏ธ๐ŸŒŸโœจ๐Ÿ’ซโญ๏ธ๐ŸŒŸโœจ๐Ÿ’ซโญ๏ธ๐ŸŒŸ๐Ÿ’ซโญ๏ธ๐Ÿ’ซ๐ŸŒŸโœจ๐Ÿ’ซ๐ŸŒŸโญ๏ธโœจ

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  9. Hearing of your social anxiety surprised me a bit, as I see you being so intelligent and articulate. But we all have our demons. I wish you the best in your endeavor and feel certain you will rise to the occasion. I believe your volunteering with kids will bring you benefits well beyond the literary ones you envision. I am here for support should you need it!

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