I’m just a vagabond and a street scholar
living a depleted life of squalor.
I’ve made these streets my home,
as I reflect upon this life with a fine-toothed comb.
Matters out of my control had put me here;
I’d lost my mind for a moment
and then that moment disappeared.
Now, I know not where my life to steer,
or how to reach atonement.
A hard life led me down a path of mental illness,
now I lean upon a life of complete stillness,
Very little help has found me
as I attempt to climb back on my feet.
The reality of humanity can be so far from sweet.
I’ve been humbled and I’ve been lost,
my hands shake and crack from frost,
restless from the nights I’ve turned and tossed.
It seems my life’s too high a cost,
and all my options are exhausted.
Yet, I still see some love in those around me.
I still feel hope in some of those who’ve found me.
I see simplicity a little more profoundly.
I may be drinking from an empty glass,
but I’m still hoping for the future…
not judging this world based upon my past.
Drugs, alcohol and poor choices
may have influenced many destitute voices.
Yet, still, within our cores
we are so much more
then these mistakes that we answer for.
We live in a society where the meek and the wounded
are left to rot if they aren’t extruded
into our high and heartless expectations.
These struggles rock us to our weak foundations.
Sleeping in the frigid cold
without a friendly hand to hold,
I suppose this life just wants me not
as I’m forced to find a place to squat.
The world’s become so cruel and greedy,
as many turn their noses up to the needy –
for they only serve an unhappy reminder
of what happens to humanity’s poor pathfinders.
The blame rests not upon the cheap select,
but on the governing society’s effect.
For whatever happens at the top
trickles downwards drop by drop.
Societies are destroyed from the start
when our leaders lack compassionate hearts.
No love for one another
and we all just fall apart.
If I close my eyes upon reflection
and meditate upon my dejection,
I can see now this present world just a little clearer;
most of humanity is having trouble just looking in the mirror.